JFDI!

*morning* Motivation levels are not high... but I need to snap out of this cycle of I gotten myself into.

I weighed myself this morning - 66kg. Considering a few weeks ago I was down to 62kg, this is not good. It has been almost two weeks since I exercised too. I am in such a slump - in my body, in my mind. I want to be better, but I feel so crappy about myself that I want an immediate pick-me-up to feel better... something sweet from the bakery section at Coles. It only makes me feel better while I'm eating though, then I go back to feeling crappy, except then with added guilt about what I just ate. Stupid cycle.

*evening* So, today was not good. I was in a filthy rotten mood, and while I started the day well and with good intentions, by late morning I had started eating badly, and I continued to do so for the rest of the day. I know I haven't done myself any favours - every extra day I spend acting out my old 'fat habits' is making it harder and harder for myself to get back on track.

Tomorrow is a new day though. I've read back some old posts, trying to muster up some of that motivation - I'm going to need it to get through the next few days, with the sugar withdrawal headaches that I'm bound to be hit with.

I titled this post JFDI - but really it needs to be JFSI! I am punishing myself with food, I need to stop and start looking after myself again.