I'm back!

Things have not been good here. I well and truly fell of the wagon. I was struggling with it in my last post, and soon after that I just gave into it. I stopped caring what I was eating - Easter was coming up and it seemed pointless to even try. I stopped exercising too. Even when you've been doing so well for so long, slipping up happens and it can spiral out of control very quickly. It sucks, yes, but it something I'm just going to have to be aware of to keep myself in line.

Easter is over now. The chocolate is gone and I have a few weeks of really bad eating to put behind me and move on. I feel much better in my mind this time - those last couple of posts I was wanting to get back to it, but I wasn't really 'feeling' it. This time I know I will be. I have renewed motivation, a new goal and some nice visualisations that keep popping into my head (just simple things like seeing myself in 6 month, 12 months time and looking/feeling slim, healthy, happy).

My new goal is a challenge - a friend has asked me if I would like to run a half marathon with her in September. For those of you who don't know, a half marathon is about 21km. If we feel okay with that, there is even the possibility of me maybe considering doing the (full) Melbourne marathon in October. We'll see.

I'm taking it pretty easy - I've been doing a bit of a body-cleanse I suppose. I have had so much crap food recently, ridiculous amounts of it - I need a mini detox. So it's all about fruit and vegetables and water at the moment.

Yesterday was a tough day - sugar withdrawal suck. I felt lethargic and headachey and just generally crappy. I'm feeling much better today, thank goodness. I still haven't started back up with exercise, but I will.

I wish I could say that I will never fall off the wagon again, but to be honest I just don't know. I wish I didn't have issues with food. This is going to be a lifelong struggle, but I know I am never going to be that fat chick again.