JFDI!

*morning* Motivation levels are not high... but I need to snap out of this cycle of I gotten myself into.

I weighed myself this morning - 66kg. Considering a few weeks ago I was down to 62kg, this is not good. It has been almost two weeks since I exercised too. I am in such a slump - in my body, in my mind. I want to be better, but I feel so crappy about myself that I want an immediate pick-me-up to feel better... something sweet from the bakery section at Coles. It only makes me feel better while I'm eating though, then I go back to feeling crappy, except then with added guilt about what I just ate. Stupid cycle.

*evening* So, today was not good. I was in a filthy rotten mood, and while I started the day well and with good intentions, by late morning I had started eating badly, and I continued to do so for the rest of the day. I know I haven't done myself any favours - every extra day I spend acting out my old 'fat habits' is making it harder and harder for myself to get back on track.

Tomorrow is a new day though. I've read back some old posts, trying to muster up some of that motivation - I'm going to need it to get through the next few days, with the sugar withdrawal headaches that I'm bound to be hit with.

I titled this post JFDI - but really it needs to be JFSI! I am punishing myself with food, I need to stop and start looking after myself again.

When you fall down...

...stand up, brush yourself off and just keep on going.

After being so good for so long, I've slipped up. There's no excuse really, I knew what I was doing.

But now it's time to snap myself out of it and get back on track. Like I've said in previous posts, this blog is here for this reason: To help me refocus when I've strayed and think about what is important.

So, once again I will keep a food and exercise diary - just for a week this time. Just long enough to get those habits I had formed up and running again.

I really like how I feel when I'm eating well and exercising. I feel really good about myself, I feel energetic and alive and like I can achieve anything. That feeling is so much better than how I'm feeling at this current moment: fat, bloated, gassy, tired, depleted of energy and a little depressed. I don't like myself at this current moment.

So, up and at 'em tomorrow morning. A run followed by a healthy breakfast... that's a start.